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[sagesaria]

Dad burried Morla today. I was just numb through most of it until he actually started covering her. Watching that hit me really hard and I cried for about a half hour after.

I think the biggest factor in this is guilt. I don't think it was old age; turtles are supposed to live a long time. Then again I don't really know how old she was when I got her. No, I think it's my fault. I had a lot of trouble keeping up with taking care of her.

Going into the details of that will just make me feel worse. Right now I just need to do something other than dwell on it.

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[luke-atmey.livejournal.com]

D: I remember when my rabbit died this past February, just a few weeks before turned 3 (then again, he was a dwarf and was lucky if he made it to 3 years old, so...)--I had a rabbit before him that died, but I had not been nearly as attached to that one as I had this one. Holy man I never cried so much over a pet in my life!

Small animals are really hard to look after either way, especially if you've got a job or lots of school work. If you don't know how she died, it's probably best to leave it at that and make no accusations; besides, if you wanted to really find out it'd be horrifically expensive (we did that once with one of my sister's rabbits--NEVER AGAIN!). In any case, I'm sure she was happy to be with you, and the thought of "why isn't she looking after me oh my god!! D<" never crossed her mind even when she died.

[patches023.livejournal.com]

Hugs!