My views on smut
Sep. 22nd, 2007 06:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sagesariaAs most people on Fandango High know, I do NOT read or write smut. And fairly recently, Stars asked me this; if I don't do sexual stuff, why do I play Foxxy? It's a good question, honestly, since I'm a little weird and might seem inconcistent. So here I'm going to explain as best I can what my limits are, and what makes Foxxy different.
Sex is a scary thing to me. The process, the body parts, the noise, it bothers me. I'm one of those people who much prefers watching people making out, maybe even some shots of the back or shoulders, then cut to the next morning. I'm even ok with seeing afterward when they're naked and sweating, or pillow-talking or whatever. But actual detail of what the genitals are doing is where I freak.
I'm not comfortable with actually reading or writing blatant sexual detail in roleplaying especially. Besides alread being freaked out by that stuff, it also feels a little too personal for me. I sometimes have to remind myself that OOC is OOC and IC is IC (some people have seen my breakdowns about that), but in the end I do remember that. But this is one instance that isn't enough. This kind of thing is so personal for me that I feel like while it's still my character, it's also me. This is me, having sex with someone I've never met IRL. This is me, having sex with someone who's practically my best friend. Yeah, awkward. I have this trouble with kissing too, but to a MUCH lesser extent, enough where I can actually DO it without being too uncomfortable.
Why then do I play Foxxy? Because Foxxy is crude. I'm ok with crude. Yes a lot of her crude material is sexual, but most of it is either vague enough or so over-the-top that I don't overthink it enough to freak me out. I would never actually write full-blown Foxxy smut, but I'm comfortable with her spouting out random stuff about her sex life (in such a way that I'm not too red in the face about it XD), or even ripping her top off and jumping somebody behind the lockers (again, without actually getting into details)
I might change this attitude someday, but I don't see it happening soon. Meanwhile, that's my comfort zone. I hope it makes sense.
(on a random tangent there was a log I saw yesterday that had implied sex in the area that I normally wouldn't have a problem with, but my brain went "waaaaaaaagh" because of the characters involved. Because I'm really close with those characters IC and OOC, so it just felt weird thinking of them having sex XD)
Sex is a scary thing to me. The process, the body parts, the noise, it bothers me. I'm one of those people who much prefers watching people making out, maybe even some shots of the back or shoulders, then cut to the next morning. I'm even ok with seeing afterward when they're naked and sweating, or pillow-talking or whatever. But actual detail of what the genitals are doing is where I freak.
I'm not comfortable with actually reading or writing blatant sexual detail in roleplaying especially. Besides alread being freaked out by that stuff, it also feels a little too personal for me. I sometimes have to remind myself that OOC is OOC and IC is IC (some people have seen my breakdowns about that), but in the end I do remember that. But this is one instance that isn't enough. This kind of thing is so personal for me that I feel like while it's still my character, it's also me. This is me, having sex with someone I've never met IRL. This is me, having sex with someone who's practically my best friend. Yeah, awkward. I have this trouble with kissing too, but to a MUCH lesser extent, enough where I can actually DO it without being too uncomfortable.
Why then do I play Foxxy? Because Foxxy is crude. I'm ok with crude. Yes a lot of her crude material is sexual, but most of it is either vague enough or so over-the-top that I don't overthink it enough to freak me out. I would never actually write full-blown Foxxy smut, but I'm comfortable with her spouting out random stuff about her sex life (in such a way that I'm not too red in the face about it XD), or even ripping her top off and jumping somebody behind the lockers (again, without actually getting into details)
I might change this attitude someday, but I don't see it happening soon. Meanwhile, that's my comfort zone. I hope it makes sense.
(on a random tangent there was a log I saw yesterday that had implied sex in the area that I normally wouldn't have a problem with, but my brain went "waaaaaaaagh" because of the characters involved. Because I'm really close with those characters IC and OOC, so it just felt weird thinking of them having sex XD)
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Date: 2007-09-23 11:25 am (UTC)I totally can get where you're coming from, because I still get embarrassed writing about sex. I only have limited experience with it in my own life and it IS very overwhelming and can be scary. I feel like I don't know enough to write about it and am therefore usually very vague. But that's me.
It's perfectly okay to not want to write about it. It's not for every one. You love cute and you do cute very well. That's A-OK by me! There needs to be much more cute in the world :D
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Date: 2007-09-23 10:59 pm (UTC)Yesh, cute shall rule the world someday >D
btw I don't remember if I plugged my faerie fest stuff at you? http://sagesaria.livejournal.com/418121.html#cutid1