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patches023's birthday party! Currently doing what I do best at parties; eating too much and being introverted.
And now I am going to ramble about roleplay news; a continuance of what I posted yesterday. I doubt very many people care, but feedback would be nice since some of my character's motivations are being worked on XP
Ok, as some people may know from my previous RP rambles; Midna and Mello had been dating for a while. At least, I considered it dating. I don't know what Mello would call it. I don't even know the extent of his feelings; just that he wants to be intimate with her.
Well, yesterday, when I posted that big red bawl? Yeah, that was because Mello and Midna broke up. It was a weird one too; Mello was crushed because Near broke up with him. I'm not sure exactly why; Near's weird that way. But anyway, Mello is PASSIONATELY in love with Near, so when he left, he just lost it. Eventually he decided that he didn't want to be hurt anymore, and so he wanted to cut off all of his romantic/intimate ties. He and Midna had a big fight about it when he told her, 'cause he's being stubborn and selfish. But Midna finally accepted it reluctantly, and asked to at least come say goodbye (he was talking to her on AIM). She asked one last time if he loved her, and he couldn't answer. So she just said some last words, and they shared an emotional goodbye kiss.
After this event, I heard fromkurosaki_akane that Mello and Near have apparently gotten back together. I have no idea of the details (since there's no log yet, if there will be one), nor do I know if this changes things for him and Midna. But Midna doesn't know about any of this anyway; she is ignoring livejournal and school for a while; she's at her friend Hilda's apartment, angsting on the couch.
So just for my own reference, and hopefully feedback, here are Midna's thoughts right now:
She is, naturally, very depressed. She knows that eventually the pain will fade, but while it is around, she is wallowing in it. At least her body doesn't need food. But she might get a little weak because she hasn't been out in the twilight, which is how she gets her energy. She isn't angry at Mello; she may have been at some point, but she just can't bring herself to be angry at him anymore. She knows it's not her fault; Mello's done stupid things all through their relationship. In fact, because she knows that Mello's had stupid ideas before, she has a vague hope in the back of her mind that he will come to his senses and they could get back together. But she knows that that's most likely a pipe dream. She can't stop thinking about their conversation; not just when he said he couldn't see her anymore, but little details; the way he talked that evening made it seem like he really loved her. It was the only time in memory that he ever referred to her as his girlfriend. She contemplates that a lot, wondering if he really did, or even does, love her. She also ponders him saying that maybe when he's let some time pass, they could still be friends. She doesn't know how she could handle that. She is still passionately in love with him; how should she behave around him if they are only friends? How intimate would she be allowed to be with him? Would she be able to stand the idea of being close to him without being able to lie in his arms or play with his hair (or let him pet hers) or kiss him?
Erm, I think that's everything. Man that's a lot to get across if I ever roleplay while she's in mourning U__U anyway, is there anything else that would make sense?
Neeeee, Luna! We should do a scene with Mello and Midna soon! Especially since I only have half a clue what happened with Mello o.o he should come to Hilda's! Unless he wants to wait for Midna to come back; she's going to miss at least two days of school, though.
Anyway, I noticed that they have the movie of A Midsummer Night's Dream, which I haven't seen since it was in theatres, so I'm going to see if I could tackle it ^^
patches023's birthday party! Currently doing what I do best at parties; eating too much and being introverted.And now I am going to ramble about roleplay news; a continuance of what I posted yesterday. I doubt very many people care, but feedback would be nice since some of my character's motivations are being worked on XP
Ok, as some people may know from my previous RP rambles; Midna and Mello had been dating for a while. At least, I considered it dating. I don't know what Mello would call it. I don't even know the extent of his feelings; just that he wants to be intimate with her.
Well, yesterday, when I posted that big red bawl? Yeah, that was because Mello and Midna broke up. It was a weird one too; Mello was crushed because Near broke up with him. I'm not sure exactly why; Near's weird that way. But anyway, Mello is PASSIONATELY in love with Near, so when he left, he just lost it. Eventually he decided that he didn't want to be hurt anymore, and so he wanted to cut off all of his romantic/intimate ties. He and Midna had a big fight about it when he told her, 'cause he's being stubborn and selfish. But Midna finally accepted it reluctantly, and asked to at least come say goodbye (he was talking to her on AIM). She asked one last time if he loved her, and he couldn't answer. So she just said some last words, and they shared an emotional goodbye kiss.
After this event, I heard from
kurosaki_akane that Mello and Near have apparently gotten back together. I have no idea of the details (since there's no log yet, if there will be one), nor do I know if this changes things for him and Midna. But Midna doesn't know about any of this anyway; she is ignoring livejournal and school for a while; she's at her friend Hilda's apartment, angsting on the couch.So just for my own reference, and hopefully feedback, here are Midna's thoughts right now:
She is, naturally, very depressed. She knows that eventually the pain will fade, but while it is around, she is wallowing in it. At least her body doesn't need food. But she might get a little weak because she hasn't been out in the twilight, which is how she gets her energy. She isn't angry at Mello; she may have been at some point, but she just can't bring herself to be angry at him anymore. She knows it's not her fault; Mello's done stupid things all through their relationship. In fact, because she knows that Mello's had stupid ideas before, she has a vague hope in the back of her mind that he will come to his senses and they could get back together. But she knows that that's most likely a pipe dream. She can't stop thinking about their conversation; not just when he said he couldn't see her anymore, but little details; the way he talked that evening made it seem like he really loved her. It was the only time in memory that he ever referred to her as his girlfriend. She contemplates that a lot, wondering if he really did, or even does, love her. She also ponders him saying that maybe when he's let some time pass, they could still be friends. She doesn't know how she could handle that. She is still passionately in love with him; how should she behave around him if they are only friends? How intimate would she be allowed to be with him? Would she be able to stand the idea of being close to him without being able to lie in his arms or play with his hair (or let him pet hers) or kiss him?
Erm, I think that's everything. Man that's a lot to get across if I ever roleplay while she's in mourning U__U anyway, is there anything else that would make sense?
Neeeee, Luna! We should do a scene with Mello and Midna soon! Especially since I only have half a clue what happened with Mello o.o he should come to Hilda's! Unless he wants to wait for Midna to come back; she's going to miss at least two days of school, though.
Anyway, I noticed that they have the movie of A Midsummer Night's Dream, which I haven't seen since it was in theatres, so I'm going to see if I could tackle it ^^
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